Required: Heels, friendship, feeding

So God has shown me four things today: 

1. It is ok to wear heels just to feel good about yourself. 
2. Real friendships are a must in my life. 
3. Deep conversation is healing. 
4. I need to be fed. 

I guess I'll start off with the first one. So, I was thinking about what I was going to wear today in the shower. No, I am not one of those people who lays out my clothes the night before. Typically, I just find a few things in my laundry basket and put them on. But, on occasion, I like to look nice. This may range from me wanting to look nice for work, or just having a crappy week and wanting to boost my self esteem a little. So, how I got to thinking about the heels thing was that I have a certain outfit I would usually wear heels with............if I wasn't on Clemson campus. You get weird looks when you go to class and you're wearing heels, and this bothers me! I thoroughly enjoy wearing heels. They help feed the girly side of me. Not to mention the fact that I'm just a tad bit obsessed with shoes. But anyways....I got to thinking about what it is that makes me wearing heels so wrong....and you know what I came up with? A big nothing! If I want to wear heels with an outfit, I should. Yes, there are always exceptions to the rule. I just want the option of wearing heels without getting all the strange looks. 

Number 2. Well...number 2 and 3 kinda go together. Why is it that some friendships always stay at a shallow level and others progress to deep ingrained friendships that are really a part of you? From what I've witnessed, it seems to be the amount of true conversation you have. Not the...."oh how was your day? Fine" conversations...the conversations where you pour yourself into someone. You let your walls come down and share yourself with another person. I try to stick to this philosophy: even if you keep your walls up, eventually my heart is going to pour so much of me out...that some will get through the walls. Sometimes it's just a trickle that gets through, other times it's like the floodgates have opened and the walls come crashing down. Relationships happen when there is a mutual sharing of each other. God meant for us to communicate with one another, and with Him. Which is why he strives to have an intimate relationship with you. Don't you think that his example of what he wants for us to have with him is what he wants for all of our relationships? To be full of dynamics and growth, not stagnant. Our lives are all about the relationships we make, so why not work on making a few of those relationships go a little deeper, instead of keeping them inch deep. The deeper relationships are going to be the ones that will always be there, the ones you can rely on, and lean on when times are difficult. God doesn't want us to go through this life alone, which is why I cherish my relationships/friendships. I know that no matter what I have going on in my life, I always have someone to lean on. Intense conversation is what I live for. It allows me and the other person to grow and open up about ourselves. So basically....if you ever need a venting session: I'm your girl. A wise man once said, "God gave you two ears and one mouth so you can listen twice as much as you talk." I truly believe that...so take some time to listen, you'll be amazed at what you hear when you're being still and silent in God's presence. Or even just on the lookout for Him, He has mysterious ways, and may use the most unexpected person to get through to you. 

Number 4: Basically I just realized that I need to find a Bible study that will be diving into the word. Freshman year my bible study spent an entire year going through Ephesians. It was absolutely incredible. I am hungry for God's word in my life. Yes, I can certainly be fed by bible studies that read the passage and go over it, but I want the deeper discussions. I want to take some time to really dig at what the Lord is trying to speak into our lives through His word. These past two years, I haven't been getting what I need in terms of a church group or bible study group. I just want to listen to where God is leading me and pursue that path, because that will be the way I will most get fed. I require digging into the word. I require the deeper discussions because this is one of the ways I feel closer to God. It  helps me understand the beauty of Him so much more and that's something I want to see always. 


Anyways, I love yall. If you ever need anything, just ask. I'm here to serve.