Wow...it's been almost a year since I have written on here....
here it goes...
This last year has brought an interesting turn of events into my life. I've found the best friends I could ever have, the love of my life and the overwhelming peace that comes with knowing God is on your side. I've started my senior year at Clemson, and loving every minute of it. It's not like freshmen year when you were running around trying out everything...I've found my niche, where I fit perfectly, and I'm really enjoying that. God has blessed me to be a leader in our campus ministry and I pray daily that he uses me to have his will be done. We can get caught up in thinking that this ministry is better than that one, and we do this better....but really that's not what it's all about. Its about increasing the kingdom of God...through all of our efforts.
We talked a lot over the weekend about being a spirit led ministry, and I really hope that continues to be our focus not only this year, but in the years ahead. We can get stuck in the rut of doing the same things over and over again...even when God isn't leading us in that direction anymore. This is the time to reflect and evaluate where this ministry is being led...and actually going where God tells us to...even if it means change.
This has been a great lesson not only for our ministry, but in my personal life. We all come into college thinking that we know exactly what our values are and exactly what we're going to do after college....haha. I think God has led me down his path (which had many twists and turns in it) to get me to where I am now. Where I know he is in control, and really that is all that matters. As long as I am seeking his voice through all the noise, I'm gonna be ok.
I thought I was going to be an engineer, doctor, nurse, psychologist, do research with the CDC...nope. While God could have used me in all of those positions....I think the broad picture of MBA, MPA, HR, or non profits....is where I'm going to end up. And right now I'm ok with leaving the picture fuzzy...because eventually He will make it extremely clear where he wants me to go. I could end up in hospital administration, managing a non profit, or working in the concert industry....you never know. And I'm ok with that....which is saying a lot coming from Miss. Plan my life down to the second.
This year has taught me to let go of the reigns and have the faith to go with the flow because when you are trusting in Gods plan instead of your own....nothing "bad" can happen. It's all according to his plan. That's really freeing.
Honestly, why I have been able to transition into this deeper faith is because of Hunter. Yes, yes...I know none of you want to hear about all that mushy stuff...but I'm completely serious. Hunter lives his life with a faith like I've never seen before which pushes me to focus on my relationship with God. I want to know Him more because Hunter does. The focus of our relationship has been keeping God as the center..and I've never had anything like that before. I'm able to see Hunter's faith play out each and every day: whether it is being patient with God changing his plan to go to grad school or simply saying a loving word when he could reply harshly. He's my best friend and better half and has made me a better woman because of it.
So I guess I'll end on that note. I know there are times when it seems like there's no reason to hope...but there is. God is carrying you through the storm, you have to be patient for the rainbow on the other side. (Think about Noah!!)
I love you all! (And might see some of you on the rafting trip tonight!) :)
